I have to get some of the things Cam does written down so I don't forget! That's why this is "mostly for me". And then I will write about Mesa Falls in the same post because I am to lazy to start another one (how sad is that?).




So about Cam:

Quick story from last Saturday:

Brynt and I were sitting on the couch and I layed  Camberlyn on her back in between us. Brynt was sitting kind of on the edge of the couch so there was a gap between him and the and the back cushion; well as soon as I put her down Cam starts wiggling herself around so that she is laying between Brynt and the back of the couch. But she didn't stop there! She then proceeded to continue wiggling until she had gotten all the way around to the other side of Brynt. It was so funny, and she was so pleased with herself lol.




Cam is officially 5 months old now, and this is the stuff she does:

~Sucks her thumb. I tried and failed to prevent that one,oh well I guess.




~Laughs at jokes. This sounds ridiculous, but in the last week she has started to be able to tell when things are funny. We let her watch Baby Einstein movies and there are certain parts where the puppets come out and do something funny (ie. pigs getting muddy and so on), and she thinks its way funny! I absolutely love hearing her little baby giggles :)




~Puts herself to sleep. This is one of my favorites. We put her to bed in her own room and she puts herself to sleep... and then proceeds to sleep 12 hours or better. I love this so much.




~ Wakes up with a smile. My favorite part of the morning is when I walk in to Camberlyn's room to get her up, and she is peaking through the bars of her crib just beaming at me. She always wakes up like this, and it just melts my heart every time.




~Roles everywhere. EVERYWHERE.




~ Squeal/scream/yells. This one is funny, and loud. She started this a few months ago, but has really honed in on her talent for it in recent weeks. She will get excited about something, and then it starts. she squeals as loud as her little voice can, for as long as she can ha ha! Its really funny, except for some occasions like during the baby blessing at Church on Sunday... who am I kidding, it was funny then too :)




~Feeding herself. When I say feeding herself I mean it in the loosest definition of the term. Little miss independent likes to steal the spoon from me and put it in her mouth all by herself. She's pretty good at it, but it gets very very messy, so she eats with her shirt off these days ha ha.




~She loves to be outside more than anything, she just smiles the whole time. She fits in well with Brynt and I ;)







Its kind of incredible to watch someone grow and change day by day, I feel so blessed that I get to witness everything that she does.
And now about Mesa Falls-




At the beginning of  the summer Brynt and I decided that we would try to spend as much time as we could outside on the weekends.  So far we have done pretty well.

We've Gone Camping:

We've Gone to Jackson Hole:

We Went Home to AZ (although it was to hot to be outside the whole time):

And most recently we went to Mesa Falls:

It was Really awesome! We first went to the Lower Falls.

They were beautiful! The only bummer was that we couldn't get very close to them.  But Cam still liked it :)

Then we went up the road a mile or so to the Upper Falls, We were able to get REALLY close to them which made my day!

Everything about it was gorgeous, the sight, the smells, the sounds... I was in heaven. The canyon that the river flows through is so green and rich with wildflowers, its wonderful just to see how full of life it is. While we were enjoying it, Camberlyn took it upon herself to try to yell louder than the sound of the water fall. SOOO funny! As pictured bellow :)

After we soaked up how beautiful the Falls were, we hit the road again and found ourselves somewhere in Island park on a little trail. We love a little hike and this one (although short) was a lot of fun. Side note, we think we found pot growing a long the path, or at least a member of the hemp family LOL. It was great to see some of the great places that are around our area. The world is a beautiful place, and we try to get out and see as much of it as we can :)

Warning: this will be pretty mushy.

I love my life. Is it perfect? No, but it is very very good. My husband is wonderful, he's my best friend. We are goofy and weird, but we laugh a lot and we talk about everything. We talk about stupid stuff and serious stuff and everything that falls between stupid and serious. Some people have told me that we are still in the honeymoon stage, and that is why we get along so well. Maybe they are right, but I don't think so. Why can't two people just really love and enjoy being with each other? Is that really that far fetched?  I love my husband more because of the things we have been through, the tough stuff has brought us closer.

And then there is Camberlyn. She's pretty awesome. I know everyone thinks their kids are great, but I just can't get over how much I love this little girl. She has developed such a personality; She loves to be outside, she's super social, very very active and stubborn (Brynt says she gets the stubbornness from me, I have no idea what he talking about. ha ha). She has mastered rolling now, in fact she tends to show off now. She rolls everywhere, and if she cant roll to get where she wants to go she does this funny wiggle/army crawl thing... once this kid can crawl for real, I am in big trouble. She's a handful and a half, but she's so fun and funny. 

This little family of mine is great. Some days Cam is cranky, some days I am over whelmed, and some days Brynt is worn out, But we are here to help and uplift each other when one of us needs it. I love them, and I love this life that I am so privileged to live.

Do you ever wake up and go, " holy cow, a lot has happened in my life in the last 2 years". Maybe not that exact phrase, but something like that?

 Well this morning I did. which sent me back in time to May of 2010. At that time I was living back in AZ, working as a Physical Therapy tech at  Desert Hand Therapy and loving every minute of it. I love the field of physical therapy, it is incredibly rewarding to help people heal. I miss that job.

I was in a serious relationship with Brynt Barney, which in and of it self is a bit funny because I had said years before that that I would never date him. We were talking about getting married, and I thought that was huge. He had known for months that he wanted to marry me, but I wasn't sure if I was ready to give up my independence. But by the end of May, 2010 I knew I wanted to marry Brynt, I knew I loved him and nothing I ever did on my own would be as good as what we could accomplish together.

Now it is May 2012, I live in Idaho, I am a stay at home mom, I am married to the man I said I would never date (never say never right?), I have a three, soon to be four month old baby girl, and I love my life.

Things have changed so much in the last 2 years, it blows my mind. But I love it, every bit of it. I have learned that it is more important to make goals than plans. Plans get ruined... a lot, they have a set rout to get you to your destination and that's it. But goals are different, they give you a destination and let you choose the path you take to get there. Two years ago I had a lot of plans, most of which didn't come to be. Now I have a lot of goal, and I am excited to see what path my life takes to get to them.

Things were going good this morning. I got to eat breakfast, I was in a good mood, Cam was playing and being good ... and then in a matter of seconds it all went down the toilet.

I was working on a craft while Camberlyn was playing in her jungle gym. Then I noticed the red eye brows, concentrated expression and yellow stain that was growing quickly. She had exploded out of her diaper. Awesome.

I quickly went over to assess the situation, craft still in hand. Did I mention the craft included a bottle with watered down, smurf blue paint? Well it did.

When I got over to the baby she kicks the bottle in my hand and gets blue paint all over her foot and the carpet. Double Awesome.

Now I have a baby with poo everywhere, a tiny blue foot and a lovely blue spot on the carpet.

I took a deep breath, laughed a little and got to work. I am still working on the carpet, but for the most part I got the disaster under control.

Lately I have been pretty hard on myself. Actually I am always hard on myself. I expect a lot out of myself and sometimes, many times, I fall short. 

I want to finish my education, I am so close to being done that it hurts, but with a baby now things have slowed down. I have not quit, I wont ever quit but they have slowed down for sure. 

I want to have a perfectly clean house, I want everything to be beautiful and perfect. Don't get me wrong, my house is clean, but not always spotless.

I want to teach Cam to be bilingual, I want to always look good and have dinner on the table when Brynt gets home from work, I want to work out every day, I want to read a new book every week, I want, I want, I want.....

Today I took Camberlyn for a walk to the park and sitting there  listening to the birds, smelling the sweet spring air, and looking at my sweet baby's face I realized that all the things I want are good, they are great goals, but they aren't what matters.

THIS MATTERS-

And THIS MATTERS-

And I have them both, they mean more to me than words can ever express. Maybe I don't accomplish everything I want to each day, I am far from being what I want to be, but those things are trivial compared with what I already have. I have the love of a man who is good and kind, who treats me like his queen and loves our daughter like crazy. I have a sweet baby girl who has changed my whole life and made me realize that love is much bigger and more powerful than I ever thought. The other things that I want will come in due time...or they wont. That's ok, because I already have what Matters.

I do realize that I am about a month late writing this but what can I say, I have a very sweet two month old who takes up most of my time.

In March Brynt and I took Camberlyn to Arizona for her baby blessing, Super exciting! We started our trip Thursday evening after Brynt got off work, which has become our normal time to travel since we don't want to miss a second that we could be spending with family on the road. Traveling 13 hours with an 8 week old baby was not super fun, but it went better than I had expected and was actually much better than traveling 13 hours when I was 7 1/2 months pregnant, that was just plain awful.

 I cannot explain how wonderful it was to see Camberlyn meet all of her family. I loved it. When you live far from family you really learn how important it is to soak up those special moments.My sweet mom had a get together for her so that a bunch of family and friends would be able to meet her. Camberlyn was able to meet Grandparents, Great Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, and people who may not be blood relations, but whom I will always consider them family. It was so special and I am so thankful for all of the wonderful people I have in my life

Sunday was the day of her baby blessing.We did it in Brynt's home ward which was neat and to add to the specialness, Camberlyn's cousin, Chevelle, who was born 6 days before her was blessed on the same day.  As I listened to Brynt as he blessed Camberlyn, I couldn't help but be over whelmed with gratitude.  I have been blessed with a Happy, Healthy, Beautiful little girl who has made my life more full of joy than I thought was possible. It was a very special moment for me.

Thanks to a snow storm we were able to stay an extra day, which was awesome, but still there is never enough time. It was a wonderful trip, and now more than ever I know that this little girl is truly loved by so many people, its incredible.

Camberlyn is one month old, I am having such a hard time believing this! She's such a blessing, sometimes I am blown away at how much love I have for her and how happy she has made my life. Here is a list of things that I love most about Cam...

~ She makes the funniest faces, especially when she is waking up. I had no idea that one person could have so many facial expressions, but she has a ton!

~ She giggles in her sleep. This has to be the cutest thing ever. It usually starts out as a smile and then gets bigger till she giggles, I love it so much.

~ Camberlyn loves to take baths. Not only dose it make bath time so much easier, its so fun to see her wiggle her toes and relax in the water.

~ Her "talking". Camberlyn has learned how to make happy little squeaking noises that can make anyone smile, its so adorable! She usually does it most in the morning, which is a great way to start my day.

~ Camberlyn is a baby dinosaur. I should explain this one; when Cam is hungry, she makes this noise that sounds like the baby  velociraptors on Jurassic Park, It cracks me up every time.

~Everything is new in her eyes. There is something absolutely wonderful about watching Camberlyn see world for the first time. I love seeing her face as she takes in all the sights and sounds around her, its so refreshing.


Honestly I could go on and on about the things I love about Camberlyn. But most of all I am grateful to my Heavenly Father for blessing me and Brynt with this sweet little girl. She makes everyday better and every experience a little sweeter.

She is finally here! On February 1st, 2012 at 11:49am Camberlyn Elizabeth Barney entered the world.

A few days before I had begun to think that she would never get here, which I think is probably normal when you reach the end of pregnancy, but it was hard to believe she was ever coming. On Tuesday the 31st I had reached my official due date and I was ready to be done with pregnancy and see my baby, and so I started walking. I walked up and down the stairs, all around the house, my mom and I walked down to the park and did a few laps, then came home and started again. By mid afternoon I was starting to get pretty regular Braxton Hicks contractions which just fueled the fire, so made sure to keep walking, standing, swaying....pretty much anything but sitting.

When Brynt got home from work, things were looking pretty good, my contractions were 6 mins apart and right on the boarder between very uncomfortable and painful. My mom suggested that we go out to dinner since it may be the last one we get alone for quite awhile. In the car we were trying to decide where would be good to eat, and then I got a really painful contraction (well at the time I thought it was painful). Brynt said jokingly, "should we get fast food?" , to which I replied " Well I think a long sit down dinner is out of the question". We ended up going to a cute little sandwich shop called Gator Jack's. The food was great, but contractions made it a little bit hard to enjoy.

When we got home we started the longest waiting game of my life. I labored at home till around 2am and then we headed up to the hospital because the contractions where getting very strong and were about 4mins apart. They checked me and said I was at about 3cm, so my options were to stay there and walk to see if I could make some progress or go home and labor there for a while longer... I chose home.The next couple of hours were long and hard, I took a nice bath and that helped a ton. at around 5am I felt like if I stayed home any longer, I might not be able to get up and go to the hospital, so once again we all got in the car and headed to Labor and Delivery. I cannot tell you how thankful I am that we literally live a block and a half from the hospital, that was miserable car ride and I am so glad it was over quickly. 

When they checked me the second time I was at 5cm and they said that was good enough to admit me. Now to be completely honest the next 6 or so hours were a blur. I had decided at the beginning of my pregnancy that I didn't want any medication ( unless it was needed), so I got to feel all the pains of labor. It was by far the hardest thing I have ever done, but that being said, I am very glad I chose that rout and if I had it to do over again I would still choose to go un-medicated. I am so grateful for my awesome husband who held my hand the whole time, reminded me to breath through the contractions and told me over and over that I could do it. I am also thankful that my mom was there the whole time, no matter how old you get, it always makes things easier when your mom is there to support you. My midwives were awesome, one of them was always there with making sure I and the baby were ok, and making sure I knew all of the different options I had (including sitting in the jacuzzi tub, which help IMMENSELY).

Like I said before, it was all kind of a blur, and I don't remember specific details until it came to the baby's delivery. That is an incredible feeling, one moment I was so tiered I honestly thought that I had nothing left and couldn't possibly go on, and the next I was holding my sweet baby girl and Brynt and I were crying with joy. All the pain was completely gone and replaced with an overwhelming sense of elation and excitement, I  have never felt anything like it in my life.

We had to stay an extra day at the hospital because Camberlyn had a high bilirubin count, but with the help of the "baby tanning booth" it went down and we were able take her home on Friday night.

Its been a week since she was born and I can't believe how much joy

she has brought to us already. Brynt can't get enough of her, the second he gets home he picks her up and has her with him where ever he goes. My mom has been soaking up every moment of being a Grandma, she loves this little girl. Aunt Baylee is over all the time so she can play with "Cambee". Camberlyn also gets to Skype with her family that is far away, we are so grateful for modern technology, it makes long distances a little easier.

As for me, I love being a mom, my heart is so full, I feel incredibly blessed and I am so looking forward to all of the adventures this amazing little person will bring into our lives.

.So this morning I leaned over to Brynt and said "this time next month we will be parents". I am just about 38 weeks now so we have reached the final count down, She will be here soon!


There were some ups and downs during week 36 (I blame my crazy pregnancy hormones for it). I started having mini panic attacks, freaking out that things wouldn't get done, that I wont be able to keep up with school ( I am taking pathophysiology online this semester), that I don't know enough about having a new born.........the list goes on and on. After a few small melt downs, and lots of loving hugs from my sweet husband, I am now feeling much better.

Today I feel so blessed and excited, I know she will be here soon and I can't wait. I am so excited to see what she looks like, what she acts like, I want to hold and get to know who this little person is!